nowgnc:

so i’ve been wanting to talk about this for a while

a lot of kids go to the internet for support, places like tumblr or r/ftm and i guess sometimes that can be really helpful, but i so often see older trans people telling kids, “if you think you’re trans, you’re probably trans. cis people never question their gender or have dysphoria” and i think that’s so toxic, not to mention untrue.

when i was one of these kids asking, “am i trans?”, i think it would’ve been so much more helpful for someone to actually help me work through why i felt like transitioning was the only option, where these feelings came from. yes, i had what would be described as dysphoria from childhood, all through puberty up until now. transitioning still was not the answer for me and i wish someone had stepped in and said, “hey, let’s think about why you’re doing this”.

i had so many medical professionals to help me and i feel like they all really let me down, the only thing they cared about was how quickly they could get me on T. and when i said i felt terrible and wanted to transition they said, “well gender identity is fluid so your identity probably changed” …like what?

since then i’ve figured out:
1) i’m a lesbian
2) i’m gender non-conforming (always have been but it was very discouraged for me to express that so i hid it)
and both of these things are totally okay.

(via detransitioneddysphoric)